HellKitten Snook

I couldnt go on any further without writing about HellKitten.  Or her normal name I call her ‘boo.’  She is my best girl friend in Secondlife who I knew in TSO.  Not sure why it is I don’t have many friends that are girls.  But with Kitt, being friends with her comes natural and I love her to death.  It all started when I was hosting a skill house one day and out from nowhere this rambunctious girl with purple hair came in named BonBon.. I made a silly comment about her name, which I took that wasnt the first time she heard it (Ricky Martin’s shake your BonBon)  I remember her saying some girls gave her a hard time because of her characters look.. and I was appauled at how some people can be because if you ask me she looked real cute.  And where can you go wrong with purple hair.  There was some drama havok happening at some other lot and Jag (David) Autumn and her went to scope it out.  I was left to run the house.  She was a regular guest at my lot.  And that quickly turned into friendship.  Very straightfoward and outspoken and really crazy fun.  We had many years hanging out in TSO and she told me she was quitting..she had some rl issues to handle plus she was getting really bored of it all.  lol, thats her even to this day.  I missed her but we spoke often in msn and she told me she was trying out a new game called Secondlife.  After much persuasion, she got me to sign up and right away she took me in.  I have so much fun when shes near.  We talk about anything, nothing too serious but she is there for me when I need to be serious.  She is honest and to the point.  No bullshit with this one..she tells it how she sees it.  Underneath all that strong exterior is a heart of sweetness.  Not many get to see that… she is brilliant, because she has the courage to speak her mind.. say the things maybe for me I would only think of.  When Kitt told me she was going to quit secondlife, because she thought she wouldnt have time for baby..I was sad, but I had a feeling she would be back.. after having her baby, to me, she is a lot tamer.lol.  Same spunk, same fiestiness but there is a warm glow around her being a momma.  She does express how hard it is taking care of Faith, but I know she is a fabulous momma and Faith is one lucky lil baby to have someone like her as her mom.  There isnt enough I can say about this awesome friend of mine, but one thing is for sure, I love her. 

Jaks McGill

I dont know where he is or what he is up to, he vanished.  But I think that it was a slow disappearance from many instances that happened in SL.  Jaks aka Jonny was a noobie when I met him.  I helped him find hair, skin and clothes.  We hung out alot, exploring different places in Secondlife.  He was very easy going and drama free.  So, he was naturally pleasant to be around.  Friendship grew close pretty quickly, we talked about our rl problems, we caused alot of sl havok.  It was a really fun time, I have to admit.  Alot suspected that we were more than friends.  There was a closeness yes, but he knew that I had a real life.  And I knew he was looking for someone to be with in RL and friends we remained.  Of course there was flirting..and I didnt mind it at all.  He made me feel like I was unique, unusual in a good way, and most of all desired.  I think it was at this point David began to realize how others felt about me.  I would say he was jealous.  All I yearned was to be adorned and out of anyone in that world or the real world, I wanted and wished it would come from David.  Wished that he said I was sexy, or gorgeous or just simply ‘the best’ I mean who doesnt need some praise here and there..some attention?  I do.  When David told me how he was affected by it of course I backed down.  I love him.  I explained that when I came on to Secondlife, I felt special, wanted, loved.  I am looked at in a certain way which I don’t feel I get in rl.  I wasnt ashamed to tell him that I liked the way that felt, even if coming from another man.  He knows that he is the only man I would love, or ever love again.  I don’t want this to be just another ordinary love.

Anyways, Jaks encouraged to build, he was kind and had a lending ear and gave alot of advice. I do miss his friendship, but I do understand that sometimes people come in and out of your Secondlife.  I learned alot from this friendship, and losing it.  I hope that the friendships I build now that matter to me, will always exist. 

Baramdoli

My desktop computer is out being repaired, and I am on my laptop which is not letting me log into the game.  Although I do love being a part of Secondife, my friends and family…I think I am ok not logging in.  I used to have an addiction of wanting to escape online.  Now it is more about spending time with friends.  What  I don’t want to do though, is mix up my priorities and lessen any quality time for David.  Though I know I complain about him and his ps3, I need to vocalize more that I need and want his time.  He just wants me happy.  Turning around to look if he is on his game doesnt count as initiative.  I need to demand more.  I give up too easy because I used to rather play SL than watch him game.  I think there can be a balance though, we each have our own thing its making time together that matters.

So thinking about Secondlife, I remember how it all started. I went back and forth from TSO and SL at first and then I just stayed with what I was more comfortable with..and it had been months before I went onto Secondlife again.  I had talked to Brenda Goodliffe, who was my tso momma, and she had told me she found Secondlife and how amazing it was.  How I should try it and visit her.. so after some thinking I went back onto my avatar to see her.  I was teleported right away to Baramdoli.  It was wonderful to see a familiar face.  She gave me so much freebies and took me all over to different spots to get free stuff.  She also took me to the place she normally visits, Odds and Ends, a dance club that offered dance pads for 3L every 10 minutes.  I tried that, and although she liked it, she knew alot of people there, i soooo wasnt feeling it.  standing there on a dance pad making minimal lindens..In fact, lol I lost more than I make because for some reason every time I went there the only available dance pad was by this stupid poker machine and I was so bored I end up losing alot of linden on it  I had 8L left to my name and swore I would never gamble in Secondlife.  Since I wasnt sure how committed I would be as a sl player, I really just hung around and visited Brenda.  It was nice spending time with her, unlike TSO where she was so popular and had so many around her, it was nice to spend some one on one time to get to know her.  She was talking about a birthday party that was coming up for a friend that she knew from TSO Ben Shirakawa.  She asked if I could come and I accepted her offer and went.  I think this started the attraction to the game.  I mingled with people, I met more of her friends which welcomed me with open arms, I even saw fireworks and some silly avatars Ben would put on.  I was in awe of how creative this place could be.  As I got to know Ben better, he was very helpful to my learning in SL, told me where to go to learn about prims.  Brenda offered me a place to stay for free if I was serious about being an active player.  My eyes opened up to the wondrous world that was before me.  She and Ben set up a little house and a prim count allotment..I bought some linden and furniture, had fun searching for lower prim made things to put in my house.  It was really awesome.  Once I learned about prims and how many you get for each parcel, I wanted to make sure that I contributed by renting rather living for free.  She gave me a 100 prims, and anything over 1L per prim..is that a deal or what?  I was grateful for their generosity.  Soon as I got more financial stability, I decided to rent more, for more prims.  My little box house turned into a beautiful house made by one of Ben’s favorite builders (because of his detail while using low prims) Rem Koolhaus.  I was loving every minute of it.  I was reintroduced to Luscious Harmison who also rented a parcel across the way, who since was Brenda’s daughter on tso, now became mine and it was really cool to hang out  Also reunited with Brad Jr.  who is my brother, and two other sisters from TSO Zoya Brown and AutumnFoxx Sutherland.  We were all enjoying the game with each other, exploring and meeting new friends.  Brenda is like a magnet for good people.  She kept meeting and introducing me to new friends.  She is so warm and helpful, she makes new friends every day it seems.  She was trying to encourage me to take classes with her to learn how to build things.  She suggested a hair class and reluctantly I went along.  We teleported to this place that looked a bit sketchy.  You had to buy materials or this book and she right away said nope, its a scam.  We were just about to walk away and leave and from afar I hear someone in cry for help.  “Does anyone know where the mens hair is?”  Momma immediately stop to offer some help.  She actually volunteers MY services as she knew I was very familiar of the hair places at this point.  She tells me to go take him to get hair, while she tp’s home to meet more friends.  This person was Jaks McGill.  He is MIA, but thought of fondly.  It was a bitter end to friendship but the beginning very sweet indeed.  More of Jaks in the next post.

Being Born

“I was born by the river, in a little tent…and ohh just like the river I been runnin’ ever since.  It’s been a long, a long time comin’ but I know a change is gonna come, oh yes it is..”  A change indeed.  It wasnt an instant change.  My rez day was on June 20, 2005.  I had been a loyal addicted ‘The Sims Online’ player for going on 4 years.  I had met the love of my life on there, I also learned alot about my rl self and how seperate worlds can collide.  It could be a crash and burn, or a sweet collision, like meeting David.  I was seeing alot of people leave TSO, including a couple of my dearest friends.  First BonBon (who is now Hellkitten Snook in SL) and Brenda Starr (who is now Brenda Goodliffe)  But I was stubborn and didnt want a change.  I had grown sentimental feelings for TSO, and wanted to savor it all as long as I could  But Kitt and Brenda would keep in touch with me, telling me how amazing SL is, and in comparison to TSO how it is a more vast limitless world.  Pretty much they told me, TSO is a bunch of bullshit.  I understand their bitterness…all the time and energy spent playing that game..how it would not give us back in return.  Only thing that was truly a gift from TSO was the friendships made and stuck with me.  So Kitt tells me about SL, she sends me pics of herself *will enclose as soon as my desktop is fixed* and how more customizable we could get our characters.  She told me about meeting new people, how much fun she was having and she did nag me a lot to get on there.  So finally, I signed up.  I created a new name, for 4 years I went by Cameron in TSO, this time I decided to change it.  One reason was I was planning on using SL as a place to hide from TSO drama.  And another I felt like I was betraying my TSO character by playing another one on another game.. Sounds a bit lame I know lol.   But Adriane Grant was born.  (I tend to go for unisex names)  I didnt go through the tutorial, I searched for Kitten Costello and contacted her, she teleported me right away.  The first thing I noticed was all the colors that shouted out and how alive it was.  I also noticed I couldnt function or manuever for shit lol.  Typical noob.  She gave me clothes for starters and showed me some basics  She took me to buy some hair, and how to customize my face..I did like that part of it, but I hated not knowing what I was doing.  She also later bought me my first skin.  She showed me all the good places to shop.  I did think at the time how wonderful SL was, but my heart still for TSO and so my appearances in SL was pretty rare.  Who knew I would be a SL junkie at the time.  Who knew I’d love it.  And so it begins 🙂

Jazon Beck

Throughout this diary of mine I will honor the wonderful people in my secondlife.. I was going to do it in order starting first with my family, but I decided to start on the person who gave me the extra push to want to start a blog.  I am a member of slprofiles.com.  Being the shy person I am, I would go on there pretty much to pimp up my page, add some pictures, and tell a little something about myself to maybe gain some new friendships.  I started posting blogs with my poetry, but I didnt get any feedback from it so I stopped.  I was looking at the FAQ forums to find out how I could customize my page better and came across a forum topic for poetry.  I began reading it and found great works done by some of the members.  Including in those posts were some by Jazon Beck.  His writing style is different to mine, but where his words derive from are all very much the same.  He opens a door into his soul as poets do and let you inside his heart and mind.   It was a feast for my eyes as I read them and it really did touch me.  His anguish with love made my heart heavy and I left a comment to tell him how deeply felt it was.  It also made me brave to post my own in hopes that readers can relate and touch them in someway as his did.  We also did a back and forth game about movies and he would put up these actors I had not even heard of lol.  I mean I thought I was the movie master, this guy knows his stuff.  I liked him before I even met him in game..so to my sweet surprise he messaged me in world to say hello.  I messaged him back and offered friendship.  He told me he was so glad I did, but really since I am the shy one, I am the one that is glad he initiated conversation in world.  When he logged in we talked as if we were friends for years.  No awkwardness, just great conversation.  We met up and then talked a whole lot more.  And that starts the beginning of a beautiful friendship.  Jazon, glad you came back to secondlife after your break.  And even more, I’m so glad we met.

The diary of Adriane Grant

A few of my friends in Secondlife started a blog to record their experiences in Secondlife and I toyed with the idea for a while and had some initial hesitation.  Alot of it has to do with privacy..maybe they practice that slogan ‘what happens on sl, stays in sl’  A small part of me feels the same however I love journaling, and I always have the need to express myself..whether it be thru music or through words.  This is the diary of Adriane Grant.  Some names will be spared to protect the innocent lol..but mostly this will be about my experiences, the people that make my life worth being there.